If I were a more uninhibited soul, I'd dance around the back yard in my robe with my hair blowing in the January night sky. Or, maybe not. I don't feel much like dancing outside in the 18 degree weather, but I have to say, it would be nice to let yourself be crazy once in a while. It has to feel pretty good, don't you think?
You wanna know what does feel good? A massage. Thanks to my brilliant husband, who guessed exactly right that what I really needed for Christmas wasn't things, but to be cared for and pampered, I feel more at home in my skin. I no longer feel like I'm rattling around in here, echoes bouncing off my inner walls. I booked Christmas present number 1 last night after work (Oh yes. There are 4 in total) and preceded to have a good 90 percent of my body's surface worked over. Knots were mashed, back was exfoliated, sore quads were kneaded to jello. Hell, even my toes were massaged! I honestly had a moment where I thought that this is what movie stars must feel like. It was a crazy thought, but then, crazy felt good.
So, not incredibly surprising, guess what I did today? I wrote. Not a few strangled words, but a scene. It's been since November 25th that I wrote a scene. Well, in honestly, it's not quite a whole scene, but it's nearly 1,300 words. I had moments where I felt like I was reading, which is so much nicer than pulling the baby out sideways. And this didn't feel crazy. It felt exactly right.
Because of that moment of feeling exactly right, I kind of want to do something crazy, like dance around a bonfire or do handstands on the beach. Lucky for me, bonfire burning in Spokane city limits is a no-no and the beach is a good 6 hour drive from here, because I'm also just plain tired. It's 9:04 on a Friday night and I'm excited to go to bed. I've had a good day. And tomorrow, I can sleep in - or at least not wake up to an alarm. And perhaps, I will write some more. After all, I have to find out how my characters are going to get out of this mess they're in!
It's good to find my tracks.
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